I love FALL!!! It is my favorite time of the year. I love the colors! Especially up here in MN, it is just so beautiful. My other favorites of fall are pumpkins, chilli, the smell of the air, apples (mainly honeycrisp), and just the whole shabang of it! My 4 year wedding anny is fastly approaching, as is Claire turning 7 months!
Claire is just a moving and a shaking. She is almost crawling. She does the "army" crawl. She sits up on her own very well. This week I have noticed she is really paying attention to detail. If there is a little piece of string on the floor she picks it up. She loves to be read to and sing her abc's. This is just such an exciting time in my life watching her grow!
I have not posted on this yet but Claire has congenital Long QT type 2. We just upped her meds to 1.5 ml three times per day. That is nothing compared to others who have heart problems. I will be posting more about this condition as we go!
HAPPY FALL!!!!!!
Jess
Monday, September 21, 2009
Monday, September 14, 2009
Anger
I have recently become an angry person. It takes a lot to make me angry. I am a person of God. I should not be this angry right? I should just give it all to Him and boom all my fears are washed away right? Not recently. Why am I angry you ask?
My life has been full of heartache. My closest and dearest friend had a miscarriage last week. She has been struggling to pick up and go. I have been giving her all the support that I can give. I, too have had a miscarriage in the past. It is truly hard because no matter if you are two months or 9 months you are bonded with that baby. You know it is there and growing. You nurture it and love. I have been reading other blogs that I have been directed to from another blog that I read (ie..Stafford Stories and Katies Keepers and few others) I love reading these blogs but they break my heart. These women are such strong women of faith. One struggles with infertilty and the others have recently lost a baby.
It took us 3 years to have our sweet baby. She is just the sweetest baby in the world. She is so carefree, happy and loving. Loves to talk like her mama. It is just amazing. I am hoping that we will be able to give her a brother or sister some day.
Here comes my anger about this....I am not angry at the above but angry at society. You have these amazing women who try and try to have a sweet baby in their arms. Some succeed some do not. Then, you turn on the evening new to hear about how some dad through a bottle at his 4 mo. old infant son and then put his head in a pillow to make him stop crying. The baby boy passed away. Or, you tune into facebook to be given a link about a baby girl named Baby Brianna Lopez, who was abused all 5 mo. of her life. Or, like my friend her former sis n law has 7 kids, and doesn't care about them at all. And, you just want to SCREAM!!! That is all I have wanted to do the last few days is just SCREAM! It makes me so darn tootin MAD!! I don't know who to be mad at. Please don't take this wrong I LOVE GOD for all that He has done but I sometime wonder about the paths He gives to people.
I don't want to be an angry person. I want to help all these women I hear about. I want to hug them tell them it is going to be okay. Take them bagels, with fruit and sit at their kitchen table and let them cry if they want. I am just so angry! I am getting help no worries. You have to say it frustrates you too? Please pray for families who want children (and deserve them, not these people who don't). I want everyone who deserves to have a child to have one like mine. It is truly only fair right? I hope you understand my anger. If you have any recommendations to help me, please let me know!
My life has been full of heartache. My closest and dearest friend had a miscarriage last week. She has been struggling to pick up and go. I have been giving her all the support that I can give. I, too have had a miscarriage in the past. It is truly hard because no matter if you are two months or 9 months you are bonded with that baby. You know it is there and growing. You nurture it and love. I have been reading other blogs that I have been directed to from another blog that I read (ie..Stafford Stories and Katies Keepers and few others) I love reading these blogs but they break my heart. These women are such strong women of faith. One struggles with infertilty and the others have recently lost a baby.
It took us 3 years to have our sweet baby. She is just the sweetest baby in the world. She is so carefree, happy and loving. Loves to talk like her mama. It is just amazing. I am hoping that we will be able to give her a brother or sister some day.
Here comes my anger about this....I am not angry at the above but angry at society. You have these amazing women who try and try to have a sweet baby in their arms. Some succeed some do not. Then, you turn on the evening new to hear about how some dad through a bottle at his 4 mo. old infant son and then put his head in a pillow to make him stop crying. The baby boy passed away. Or, you tune into facebook to be given a link about a baby girl named Baby Brianna Lopez, who was abused all 5 mo. of her life. Or, like my friend her former sis n law has 7 kids, and doesn't care about them at all. And, you just want to SCREAM!!! That is all I have wanted to do the last few days is just SCREAM! It makes me so darn tootin MAD!! I don't know who to be mad at. Please don't take this wrong I LOVE GOD for all that He has done but I sometime wonder about the paths He gives to people.
I don't want to be an angry person. I want to help all these women I hear about. I want to hug them tell them it is going to be okay. Take them bagels, with fruit and sit at their kitchen table and let them cry if they want. I am just so angry! I am getting help no worries. You have to say it frustrates you too? Please pray for families who want children (and deserve them, not these people who don't). I want everyone who deserves to have a child to have one like mine. It is truly only fair right? I hope you understand my anger. If you have any recommendations to help me, please let me know!
Tuesday, September 1, 2009
Life has been nuts lately....
Well...in the last couple of weeks we have been so busy as a family. We are trying to get my Grandma all settled in up here in Minnesota. Now, we have to work on getting my Grandpa up here. That is a bit more tricky.
This past weekend we had my daughter baptised. She did so great! She smiled through the whole thing. I think she realized it was her special day to become God's child. I would post pictures but I have not been able to upload pictures on this new computer yet.
I am hoping over the next few posts I can introduce to you my family. I would like to tell you more about my family and why I am going to be blogging. I may not blog much at first but I am hoping to get better at blogging everyday. I am hoping to increase my readers. I don't think I have any yet but who knows. I just mainly want to document my life here on this earth!
Have a great day!!
This past weekend we had my daughter baptised. She did so great! She smiled through the whole thing. I think she realized it was her special day to become God's child. I would post pictures but I have not been able to upload pictures on this new computer yet.
I am hoping over the next few posts I can introduce to you my family. I would like to tell you more about my family and why I am going to be blogging. I may not blog much at first but I am hoping to get better at blogging everyday. I am hoping to increase my readers. I don't think I have any yet but who knows. I just mainly want to document my life here on this earth!
Have a great day!!
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